Prom is in may- i really want to fit into
this dress.
Okay, so I have just signed up with a program called MedShape and I haven't started yet, but i'm definitely signed up. Tomorrow (10-30-8) im seeing the doctor lady. Today I got my blood drawn for testing. I'm nervous though because my parents cannot pay for any of my being part of this clinic. I have to pay for the clinic myself, and my groceries, and my gas etc. Bleh. I'm only 17...
Anyways. On MedShape I have to stick to an extremely strict diet and I need to inject myself 6 out of 7 days a week. I also go and talk to Maria (the diet lady) once a week for stuff like how im doing on the diet etc.
I'm nervous because I really need to stay on the diet. I know i can its just gonna be tough. bleh. if you have any advice contact me at myspace.com/hotsonyou =]
definitely the first few things I wanna do once I lose weight, I want to buy and wear a sexy bikini, and I want to actually have an amazing time on california beaches!!
And just to make it clear- I do really want to be a playmate. It upsets me that Holly and Hef are no longer together and none of the girls are actually there any more and that Hef has some new whore girlfriends. Having the experience of possibly being a playmate might not be as fun without the girls there, since the girls were the whole reason why i wanted to even get involved with playboy.
I think that after this weight loss clinic along with playboy, my bikini, prom, and california, new things will arise for me as well. =] I have many hopes and dreams and I am finally getting a fresh chance to make them come true.
thank you!
Courtney


I definitely want to look like Holly Madison (maybe cus she's gorgeous, but of course i'd be black lol) and next Halloween I want to look just as sexy as she does in one of these pirate costumes!
I have lost approxiamately 7 pounds in less than 2 weeks so far! =] i'm still excited.
November 17- thursday I had lost a total of 11 pounds. Thats 2 weeks worth. This week I feel like I haven't lost ANYTHING =[ it really sucks. unless my scale is retarded now. Please message me. I get so bored on here cus no one talks to me, and this is the most I've ever been on this site lol.